| Life update. |
[04 Nov 2009|12:40am] |
So I've been meaning to get back on here for months and months and sometimes I feel like I've run out of people to talk to so here I am.
1) I have a wonderful, wonderful boyfriend. I can't even begin to explain what he does for me. I'm not even talking about love or blah blah blah. Just simply the fact that he's there for me. He keeps me sane. He distracts me from everything crumbling around me. Without him, I'd be stuck in this apartment being mopey and sad all the time. He found me at the perfect time.
2) School. Ugh. I want to be good in school again. i want to have a drive to get GOOD grades. Not just grades. I want to have interests that I HAVE to learn about right now. I want to want to research grad schools and certification tests.
3) I want this court thing to be settled and for the money to be in my lap and her to be in jail. What I went through was horrible, horrible and I'm tired of reliving it all the time and getting so angry at her and at her fucking lawyer. They want to talk to me. They want to talk to me... I'm pretty sure they're not ready for what I have to say. I want to tell her how much it hurts me every day. I want to tell her that I hate her for making an awful decision that I had the intelligence not to make. I want to tell her I know she's still drinking and being stupid. Ugh. I'd definitely start screaming if I ever got her alone.
4) I have a wonderful life and I need to learn to live it up to what it can be.
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[04 Nov 2009|12:38am] |
Ashley: "blah blah blah I'm so cool - Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "I got hit by a car -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I think I'm the best at everything - Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "I flirt with every guy on the planet -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I can't take normal pictures because I'm too cool for that -Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "Everyone wants to hear my heartbreaking story and sorrowful troubles -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I let my parents tell EVERYONE how I'm the best at everything ... because I am that good -Michelle McGee
Michelle: "Excuse me, Oprah's calling.... -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I'm a better softball player than Michele Smith because my name has 2 L's. -Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "Oh wait! Dr.Phil's on the other line! I wonder who will be the higher bidder! -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I have secret boyfriends but don't realize that my sister knows everything because she is better than me. -Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "Angelina Jolie wants to play me in the movie......but I told her I would only hire the best and kicked her to the curb. -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I steal all my sister's stuff because even though I deny it, I know she's the best ever and I want to be more like her. -Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "Well I just got my.........BOY! BOY! Excuse me, I must chase. -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I sit around and let all the boys come to me because I'm so pretty. -Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "I wish I was as cool as my sister....... -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I make up things my sister said because I know that I can't really be as cool as she is. -Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "I'm leaving because I'm so lame -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I know that my sister is too cool for me so I'm going to pretend to have to do something else so I can go cry in embarrassment that I lost. -Michelle McGee"
Michelle - "I'm not going to make up something to leave. I'm just going to leave because my presence is suffocating those around me because of my bigheadedness! -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "I pretend my sister has a big head but it's all just because my ego couldn't even fit into a head her size. It's TOO BIG! -Michelle McGee"
Michelle: "bye bye sister DEAREST! -Ashley McGee"
Ashley: "bye bye my IDOL -Michelle McGee"
I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You never know what hand you're going to get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you. - Jack Dawson
"Be careful. That man is so sexual you could get pregnant just listening to him talk."
"The difference between you and me is I carry you with me always, therefore you are with me. Your soul is stronger than your flesh."
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"You worry too much! Live your life with no regrets and don't about what others want you to do ! If you can't make you happy, you will not let others do it!"
- KC
"You want to know how I know they named a drink after you?! ... It's called the Teazer!!" - AE
"I thought I liked Taye Diggs because he was black and muscular and has immaculate teeth but because we're white, we're apparently genetically predisposed to loving Taye Diggs ...
It's not totally original. I stole it from a Dave Chappelle joke involving black people being genetically predisposed to loving chicken."
-Ashley Danielle Reycroft
"Sluttin is a habit. Get like me."
-Ashley Danielle Reycroft
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| One moment. |
[05 Jun 2009|01:03pm] |
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One moment can change your life.
You hear that all the time. It happens all the time. How often do you get it slapped in your face though?
It was a good Friday night. I was at work, scooping with one of my favs, Kris. Pretty slow night. Cleaned up by 1. Decided to go to Brett's for a normal Friday night. Got there and everyone was wasted and I was grumpy. Tried to leave around 2:30 but Amanda stopped me and so I stayed til 3. At 3 on the dot, I asked if I could leave then. I was told to text her when I got to the corner of 34th and 35th and then when I got to the Polos and when I got into my apartment. I agreed and walked out and got on the phone with Jay. I was about 100 feet past the light at 37th and 34th when my roommate passed me driving. I thought about calling her to turn around and come get me but i thought better of it and decided I needed the exercise and the walk wasn't that much further. About 15 minutes into the walk (and about 2 minutes after I texted Amanda I was at the corner), I remember laughing about something and then I gasped as I felt something knock the back on my knees. My phone flung out of my hand and I saw the moon and all the stars. I closed my eyes as I came down on something hard with my head and butt and I was flying again. I opened my eyes and watched the bottom of a car roll over me from head to foot. What felt like the next second but was evidently around 5 minutes later, I opened my eyes and sat up in the middle of the road. I looked down at my right arm and it was drenched in blood. I didn't feel any pain so I just thought "that sucks" and looked around. I saw the Rocky Point complex sign and realized that was where I was. There was a guy looking at me while walking on the other side of the street. I heard people talking behind me and it was the EMTs getting ready to spineboard me. I remember being in the ambulance and a HOT EMT was on my left and closer to my feet was a middle-aged very nice woman who was asking me my name, birthday, address, etc. I got an IV put in and they were talking to me. I looked up and saw 3 ceiling lights and while I was staring at them it hit me (haha) that I was hit by a car. So I'm laying there on the ride and I said outloud "I just got hit by a car .... I just got HIT by a car ... FUCK I JUST GOT HIT BY A CAR!!" and I immediately reassured the EMTs that I knew what I was saying and I wasn't just repeating myself because I had a concussion and I didn't know what I was saying. Haha and I asked the hot EMT to just tell me how bad it was because I used to be an athletic trainer and I could handle it. His answer was vague but positive. So we get to the hospital and the jump from the ambulance to the ground is really bumpy.
Hospital: so they're wheeling me around and I'm getting so dizzy. (I still get dizzy bending over and laying down. Bleh.) I'm brought into the trauma room and there's about 12 or so people on my trauma team moving around me and poking me and yelling directions for others. I got another IV in my hand to add to the one in the crook of my elbow (both on my left arm). My right arm is being cleaned by about 3 people and one male doctor dumps saline on it and I can feel it slide over my arm ... and then it sinks in. Oooooh feel the burn!! lol I was still in a collar and there was a board underneath me so I couldn't move. They were also doing heel strikes and tap tests along my legs to check for fractures and such. Pushing my abdomen around to check for any organ damage. Lots of talking that I wasn't really listening to. Got sent to CT. Hot guy had to leave me and yes the words "are you leaving me?!" came out of my mouth. hahah oh man. During the CT, I was falling asleep and worried about a concussion. I tried calling out for someone (you know in Grey's they can always talk to the doctor while in the machine) but no one came for me until they switched to do the face CT. The nurse (I never saw her face) said it was okay if I fell asleep but I didn't believe her. So I tried to stay awake and stare at the lights but they were moving left to right and that almost put me to sleep so then I tried to read the words imprinted on the inside of the machine but that was too hard and finally my 6.5 minutes were up and I got rolled to a private room where there were 2 asian nurses and 1 male asian nurse cleaning out all my wounds and double checking for broken bones and nonsense. Pretty painful but I got to call Lysa who didn't answer.
Cop: As I was giving the phone back to Gina, the asian nurse, this nice looking officer walks into the room in full GPD uniform. Me, being me, squeaks "Hey!!" and he immediately stutters "you're talking." and I smiled (or what I thought was a smile) and said "you seem surprised" and he counters with "yeah." It was silent for a second and then I asked "Lot of blood?" and he goes "Yeah, a lot of blood. I didn't think you were going to make it." That kind of put me in my place and I thought about it for a minute while he starts to get ready to get my side of the story. I immediately launch into telling him that the EMTs told me that the girl that hit me said I was in the middle of the road and I WAS NOT in the middle of the road and he understood and we talked about what I remembered and I asked if she was drunk and if there were tire marks and he said he'd have to go back and investigate some more. He also asked me if I had been drinking and because I rarely, rarely lie (and especially not to an officer of the law) I told him I had one beer which was the truth but that I was sober because I had finished it around 1:45 and I left the house at 3. I also didn't know if they had blood alcohol tested me so I just wanted to cover my bases. I asked him if he could possibly go wake Stephanie, my roommate, up when he went back and he assured me he would. Right after I ask this, this male nurse comes sprinting down the hall and tells me "Miss McGee, you have a phone call" and I reply "Yessss!" haha and it's Lysa who's a little concerned because the message I left her just said that I had been hit by a car and I was in Shands and that I needed her. So she tells me she's on her way and then I tell Officer Cromwell that he doesn't need to wake up Stephanie because Lysa will. So he leaves to go back to the scene and I just lay there for awhile slipping in and out of sleep I think until Alysa walks in and she immediately turns into Mama Lysa and is rubbing my arm and her voice cracks a little and I almost start crying because it's finally hitting me so she sits down in the chair next to me and we start calling people.
We called my parents first, although someone on the trauma staff had told me that my parents were called. I had Lysa talk because I was laying in the bed trying not to move. I was so stiff and the soreness was setting in even though they had given me morphine. We called my mom's cell phone first but she didn't answer that so we called my house phone. Unknown to Lysa and I, my sister answered the phone. Lysa launches into the story about how "Ashley got hit by a car, but she's okay. She's in the hospital and you can talk to her if you want" and I guess my sister bursts into tears and hands the phone to my mom without saying anything and Lysa simultaneously hands me the phone so all I get is "WHAT happened?" And I said that I was fine but I was in the hospital because I got hit by a car and she just says "Oh my gosh, Ashley!" haha so then she asks which one of my parents do I want to come first because the other had to bring Michelle to play softball. I just wanted to be surprised. So then we keep calling other people, Stephanie, Allie, David, Victor Wang - who I wanted to call to tell him I one-upped him since he's in the hospital so much and he thought Alysa was joking and then finally figures it out and goes "Are you fucking serious?!" which made my giggle. V Wang and Defe showed up a few minutes later and we all sat around and talked and then Allie showed up and then Stephanie and I had X-Rays done on all of my limbs because they thought my wrist was fractured. And I had my fingers stitched. Everyone got to watch. There was a crater on the outside (furthest from me) side of my right middle finger and my ring finger was cut open pretty good too. Dr. Bennett was super cool in explaining everything and everything he wanted to do. I got Lidocaine and Epi to numb the area. 3 long pokes in each finger. Hurt but not too bad and then it went numb and he did his stitches. I only half watched because I was a little nauseous from the morphine already and watching your own fingers get stitched up may sound cool but it had already been a long morning.
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[14 May 2009|10:34am] |
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Things I'm excited about:
The Dick Vitale Gala for Cancer Research tomorrow night.
To see my mommy later today.
To start enjoying my summer.
To go to the pool.
To get back to work.
To start classes.
To start camps.
To workout.
To lose weight.
Things I'm sad about:
Losing her.
Missing her.
Everyone that has cancer.
Everyone that has dealt with cancer.
Leaving my puppy for one day.
Someone being so selfish and not ask what's wrong with anyone else.
Anyone who can be that self-involved.
Missing Bri.
(yes and no) Not having a guy around.
Things I'm nervous about:
My classes for summer B.
Getting good grades.
Graduating on time.
Getting a real job ... not really. I could live like I do right now forever. :)
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| In the morning, I get up and I trý to feel alive but I can't... |
[08 May 2009|10:28pm] |
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Something in me just won't give me a chance.
So the biggest disappointment ever is that I failed Microeconomics. It's not really the failing part that is the major disappointment (mainly bc there's an E on my records - haha thanks UF) but the fact that I have to change my whole schedule for graduation around. I think it'll all work out but it's going to be a crunch.
And my dad called me fat. Or just simply asked me if I "stopped working out?" Ugh. Now I have an eating compulsion. Awesome.
Becca's randomly coming to pick me up. Sweet. Tomorrow's family fun day. Oy. Should be fun.
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[29 Apr 2009|10:25pm] |
Word to the wise: Don't listen to the soundtrack of PS. I love you when trying to study after a particularly draining day. Not productive.
I have so much to look over tonight. Film analysis is all crap. The end.
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[23 Apr 2009|12:46pm] |
So last night I had this half-drunken (but more like alcohol-makes-the-truth-come-out) breakdown. It just sucks when you're the person who does everything for everyone else and when you need someone ... anyone .. no one's there. I can't beg. I'm not a begger. I've always been the type of person to fend for myself. Oh I don't have a car? I'll just walk home, even if it's a mile at 2am. Oh, my roommate took my keys? Well, I'll just sleep on the doorstep until my wonderful upstairs neighbor came down the stairs to my rescue.
It's hard to deal with other people's drama by yourself. Like if I lived alone and only saw the people I wanted to see when I wanted to see them, my life could be a gabillion times better. But I'm stuck having it pounded into my head 20 hours out of the day by the people I'm surrounded with right now. And I've also chosen to surround myself with them next year.
Enough of being mopey for now.
I'm going to try and hang out with people that Steph & Bri don't know. hahaha.
Until the next time...
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| If I take one more drink... |
[11 Apr 2009|07:29pm] |
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So every weekend I have to go on these 3.5 mile walks because I have to go to work and the buses are gay on weekends. I don't mind that much. I need the exercise. But the trouble is I get to think. Today my thoughts were quite depressing. I thought about J Wat. I thought that he was probably one of the deepest hurting people thàt has entered my life. I thought about his rationale - and then thought about the fact that I'd never be able to compare thought processes with him. I thought about Terron and how much I need him in my life and how useful I could be in his but he's never going to let me. And I need to stop pushing. I'm a pushy person. I thought about my relationship with Johnny. And how I can't read him and how I'm pushing too hard.
I thought about how empty my life is. How I have no direction after December. How much I don't want to graduate. How I would rather take meaningless classes forever. How I should take more pride in what I do.
I thought about how much I don't like what Stephanie does. It's part jealousy, part anger that she's so full of hypocracy. That's a whole other entry though.
I'm so tired of working. I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm tired of meaningless ice cream scooping. I'm tired of not doing anything with my major ... Not that I really understand my major anyway. Jeez, I need to man up.
Time to walk into work.
Bleh.
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[07 Apr 2009|12:05am] |
I really should get a medal for stretching out my writing to take as much time possible in the time allowed. I always finish right at the deadline no matter when I start. Fun stuff.
No boys is kind of nice. I feel more relaxed.
I had a good weekend. And I'm done with school projects for awhile. That's nice.
Just work and going to class.
This isn't going anywhere....
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[30 Mar 2009|01:15pm] |
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Okay now it's serious move on time. I'm excited. All of the anger and nonsense has left me. Cleaning today. Maybe I'll go work out. Get my schoolwork done. Looking forward to a good, new day.
xoxoxo.
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[28 Mar 2009|08:55am] |
Dear J Wat,
I unfriended you on facebook. You and I both know this. TAKE A FUCKING HINT. Clearly I don't want to talk to you anymore. I don't want you in my life anymore. Don't message me and ask why we weren't friends and did I unfriend you. Yes, when you were someone's friend and then you're not anymore, that's what they did.
When I then respond to you, DO NOT ask why I don't want to be your friend anymore. YOU know our history. You are engaged! Fucking man up. And definitely do not end the message with "so what have you been up to?" !!!! We're NOT friends. You blew it a long time ago! Fucking take responsibility and stop trying to keep tabs on me.
Have a nice life, asshole.
Ashley
I was on the verge of tears yesterday. He should not have this control on me. I should not care. I DO NOT care. I'm feeling better today. I'm glad I didn't write yesterday. It would've been 23479375 times worse. Today is a new day though and my puppy woke me up at 7:45 when I don't have anything to do until 2:45. Sweet. :)
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| I can't say yes & I can't say no; feelings I try not to let them show; I think I better let them go |
[27 Mar 2009|12:57pm] |
I have intimacy issues.
It's not at all that I don't want it. I crave it. But I've come to understand that the only reason I crave it is because it means someone is paying attention to me. I can pretend that they care in that moment. So when I get it, I find myself becoming clingy and needy and that's not who I am at all. So I pull back. But am I losing out? I've gotten into so many situations and relationships in the past 3 years that's led me to be jaded and bitter. This is what I was trying to say to Jamie. I had a perfect relationship in high school (minus my parents not knowing at all) and then I got up here and started to experiment (in the lightest sense of the word) and a couple of experiences later, everything came spiraling downward. I want to stand up for what I believe it. I want a relationship. I want to believe that a hookup can lead to a relationship (and I KNOW it can) it's just never happened for me. So I cling to the people around me and that makes me ... well, clingy.
So there's this guy and it's not even that I'm attracted to him really. He's a sweetheart and (sorry) really good. And I want to tell him I want to see him more often then like once every two weeks. But I can't be out there like that anymore. And do I even really want to see HIM more often? Or do I just want the attention more often? He's come back more than once which is usually a good sign for me. But I don't even know anymore.
One of the guys that has hurt me the most ... but not really, hurt persay. I'm just drawn toward him the most even though I know that I absolutely should not be. I let him go. I'm really letting him go. I unadded him on fb, deleted his number (a long time ago), I don't want to give him the satisfaction of knowing he still has me. I do NOT want to be there. I'm not going to be.
There's a freshman who I'm crushing on. And I'm out there. I flirt. He flirts. We flirt. And I might be going a little crazy. I wish I found myself more attractive. I wish I could be confident in the fact that someone could like me. I need to work on this.
That is all for now. Time for work and baseball.
Xoxo.
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[26 Mar 2009|11:39am] |
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So I have slutty, dramatic friends. I only have a problem with this some times. Most times, I just laugh it off because my groups of friends are pretty incestual (in the sense that we all just hook up with each other - with the exception of me because I'm the only one that knows how to branch out). I just have a couple rules if you're going to hook up with one of my friends.
1. Don't lie about it. Don't try to deny it. Just be straight up and take some responsibility for what you did.
2. If you're going to do something, I have the right to call you out. Don't worry - I'll only call you out when I'm drunk and have that liquid courage. But I do have that right. You can't get mad because you don't want to take responsibility.
3. Oh and one final last one. Everyone knows that I know everyone. Everyone knows how much of a gossip everyone is. Therefore you should be able to put together that everyone is going to talk to me. There's not much you can hide from me. And if you think you can, I probably already know.
I've had 2 friends in the last couple of weeks try to get away with things behind my back. Oh yeah, fun story - it's with the same guy who is ALSO my friend - oh and who I knew first. It makes me giggle. And then get angry. And then slap myself for getting angry and giggle again. La la la la.
In other news, I'm crushing on a freshman. He's the goofy type of cute. And he's 6'6". I don't think I've actually liked anyone in awhile. I've found guys sexually attractive but that's about it. I love LJ for letting me to just write and figure things out about my life. But yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm going overboard with him but whatever. If nothing happens, nothing happens. It's not a big deal. (that's me lying to myself to make sure I don't flip out when nothing happens.)
School is winding down. I have a 6 day weekend. Well it's 5 days now. But I have the perfect lineup of classes being cancelled so I don't have to go to campus Thursday, Friday or Monday. Baaalllin. Excited to just work, making those Benjamins. :)
Jamie, I'll write to you in a little bit. :)
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| There's nothing I could, nothing I could do to make you see how much you mean to me... |
[10 Mar 2009|02:58pm] |
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I wish I knew how to relax. I'm on "spring break" and I sit around bundled in nervous tension about nothing. About money. About the schoolwork I'm not doing. About my loneliness. About not having a phone. About random things going on in my life.
And I've worked every day since Friday. Only like 4 hours a day but that stresses me out too. Ugh.
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[02 Mar 2009|10:33pm] |
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Lollipop - must mistake me for a sucker. To think that I'd be a victim of another.
Say it, play it how you wanna but no way I'm gonna fall for you - never you, baby.
I guess when you have one too many, makes it hard. It could be easy.
Who you are - that's just who you are baby.
It's about the chase.
It's always about the chase. Once that's gone, there isn't much to work with. No one is scared of commitment. Everyone's scared of what's left after the chase.
Ugh. I hate this.
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[24 Feb 2009|10:20pm] |
It's funny how a year ago you were texting me from on the field, telling me I was yours. It's funny how 10 months ago, I was going through the scariest time of my life and you left me. Just like that. It was so easy to be done. Because you were scared too. Because you had an exit. A doorway out. And you took it, leaving me there crying. And I was angry. Very angry for awhile. But now I'm over it. Well, over the situation. And 6 months ago, I realized how ridiculous you are and how you're never going to change. And about 5 months ago, I realized (the one time) when I see you, I feel close to nothing. Maybe a little silly. Sorry for the girl you are engaged to. Sorry she may never know what you're doing. I know I wasn't the only one.
And today, you want to talk. Today, you want to remind me how for a short time you were the most important thing to me. The person I thought you were. The person I thought I was to you. Hahaha all I can do is laugh. Way to keep tabs on me, asshole. Way to keep reminding me. Too bad I don't give a fuck anymore.
Things I am thankful for:
1. Raspberry sorbet mixed with Ghiradelli chocolate ice cream.
2. My adorable baby, Mason
3. Feeling wanted.
4. Gator baseball
5. Blue eyes
6. an Eastern Michigan player knowing J. Alexander is Miss Jay for ANTM
7. Lauren Ash's understanding
8. Rohit, Rigo, El
9. Anthony, Anthony
10. Atonement
11. Facebook
12. Candles
13. Burts Bees
14. Juliet
15. Long hair
16. Alcohol
17. Comforters
18. Missing Payton.
19. Cuddling
20. Being able to look back on life experiences
21. Pancakes
22. Lorenzo
23. The basket
24. Ben Hill Griffin
25. Cold weather hugs
26. The Scott Van Pelt - LBJ chair SportsCenter commercial
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[13 Feb 2009|02:26pm] |
I struggle today.
Hard.
Could be PMS. Could be Friday the 13th. Could be the day before Valentine's Day.
Could be that life has finally caught up with me after last week.
Ugh. I just want to go back to sleep and wake up tomorrow.
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[08 Feb 2009|10:33pm] |
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1) Chris McCarty is amazing. If you ever have the chance to go watch him, I can't recommend it enough.
2) Defe's drunk dial pretty much made my weekend. It was so cute!
3) LYSA'S 21st is Saturday!! I'm really excited for that!
4) He's Just Not That Into You is a super duper amazing movie.
5) I don't have a phone ... it is killing me.
6) New Boy Thing is probably trying to contact me (or at least that's how it plays out in my mind) but I don't know because my keyboard on my phone shorted out so I can't get to any of the 73 messages I have.
7) The fact that I have 73 messages in a week makes me happy.
8) I have a Micro test on Tuesday that I want to shoot myself over.
9) This is a good rep of my life ...
Just remember that you talkin' to me though.
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo.
I mean, after all the things that we've been through...
I mean, after all the things we got into...
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely...
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Today is going to be a long day. I'm up at 7:01 because I know if I go back to sleep, I'll over sleep and miss everything important. I broke my phone for real and so now I have no alarm so Mason wakes me up and I have to stay up. Even though I don't have class for 2 hours. Great.
Living without a phone is so incredibly difficult. I have mini panic attacks like a billion times in the last 2 days. lol
And the possible boy thing could've texted me and i'd never know. Tragic.
This was going to be really long and deep but I can't possibly keep long and deep thoughts in my head at 7:08am.
♥
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[29 Jan 2009|09:44am] |
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My life spins around so fast - it is so hard to catch and hold onto something.
Take yesterday for example - I get up early to get eat breakfast and do a lab worksheet with my friend Rohit. He's a super amazing genuine guy who's just always there for me. Awesome. Then I run into Bri and Steph (two of my best friends at UF) and Steph gets mad at me because I'm trying to stop her from turning into this crazy super stalker over this guy. Great. I'm dealing with that. I get an EKG done in lab which was pretty sweet. I love talking to Nemo after lecture. We're standing in one of the busiest spots on campus (out front of the Hub for Miss Jamie who knows what I'm talking about) and he stops to talk to another girl (which has already happened like 20 times in about 100 yards) so I keep walking. Next thing I hear is clear as day him yelling "BYE ASHLEY. I LOVE YOU. DON'T FORGET ME. I LOVE YOU. NO REALLY. I LOVE YOU!!!" Ridiculous ... yet made me happy.
This is the amazing part of my day. So I have about 20 minutes in between class and a lunch day with Christina. So I go run the stadium. Working out is such an endorphin release. I'm running up and down the stairs, having a great time. I see one of my favorite football strength & conditioning coaches. I run down and he gives me a big hug even though I'm pretty much drenched in sweat. I asked him about interning with him next spring and he was really EXCITED about it. So now I'm on cloud 9.
Then ... this is getting long... make it short. Basketball game. Allie was sneaking David & I in and Steph decided to come with us and then it turned into this whole thing that I planned it bc Steph couldn't get a wristband at that exact moment and I'm such a bitch and blah blah blah. OMG. Way to be a complete buzzkill. But the game was freaking amazing. Gator sports = best ever. Then I went and relaxed with David and Alysa.
And then - this is the secret part. There's this guy I've been seeing. Who I shouldn't be seeing. But he's just one of those one's with something about him. Can't let it go. Well he comes over and we had a great conversation ... for us. Because we never talk. And it was really, really nice.
And now Julian's coming over to see me so I must clean. And snuggle with my puppy. Love him. ♥
Hope everyone has an amazing day!
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